Build Ups

I have always had a list of guys that I have had crushes on and wondered what it would be like to hook up with them. Well...now that I am single, I have the opportunity to check these crushes off the list. With each of my crushes, I have an image in my mind of what it would be like if we ever went out or hooked up - a passionate, romantic encounter.

Last night I went out with some friends and that group included a guy I have had a crush on for a long time. We have always been super flirty with each other but it has been innocent because we knew it could not go anywhere. Last night was weird because it was the first time I have been around him since the divorce and I knew the flirting could lead to something more. At the end of the night, everyone went home and my crush and I were left at the bar together. We shared a cab home and I was probably more forward than I should have been - courtesy of my good friend Grey Goose- about if we were going our separate ways or going back to his house. Verdict...his house. Nothing really happened and we were both pretty drunk, but I was super disappointed in the encounter :( It was a far cry from the passionate, we can finally hook up after all these years encounter I imagined. I don't regret things because everything happens for a reason, but I certain wish I made better choices (damn those vodka drinks).

Point is...I built up a scenario in my head for so long and now that it happened it was a let down. Good news is it is checked off my list and I can move onto the next.